I can relate. My husband was a broken bird when we were first together. He suffered with depression and an eating disorder. Even so, it took seven years before he could fully cry in front of me. I would hold him and feel really good that he was letting it out, because it seemed like this would help him heal. In some ways he did, and in some ways he didn't. It wasn't always an easy marriage and we've had two separations. I'm not sure where we're going at this point, but we're talking openly and honestly about our wants and desires. I opened up to him about my fetish today and I think he understands, vaguely...but at least I don't feel judged. He's actually the first person I felt safe crying deeply in front of. The only problem is, he doesn't hold me the way I wish he would. He comforts me, but eventually finds something else to do. Lol. Oh well. But yes, back to your topic, I do find myself turned on by drama. The more, the better. It's not something I'm always comfortable with, nor does it bring lasting good results, unless a person heals and can move forward in a healthy way. I guess the intensity of strong emotions is what keeps me feeling alive. Since strong emotions also include happiness, however, I guess I'm not a bad person lol.
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