It was a friend of mine who reacted poorly. I ended up crying in front of him about family stuff from back then when we were hanging out casually. Not very hard at all just a few tears and kind of shaky voice, not like sobbing or anything.
He seemed really annoyed and kind of shoved tissues at me and changed the subject, and avoided me afterwards. We haven’t really hung out or takes since.  I didn’t really get why he reacted like that but I guess he thought it emasculated me in some way, so he doesn’t like me afterwards? Weird imo but still turned me off doing it again. I was disappointed cause i felt we were pretty good friends and that just totally went away afterwards =/

I guess. Not a great combo when I was already kind of pent up tho. Wish he’d gotten over it but oh well, what can you do?
I’m glad someone else picked up his slack eventually lol

Part 2 I guess:
Another pillow stained
https://ibb.co/CsSDK99w

Amans lacrimae wrote:

Wow, I guess the mystery has been solved, you do shed more than a few tears. Were you alone this time as well? What causes you to dry this time? I’m a bit surprised it happened so soon, considering you mentioned rarely crying.

Guess it was solved indeed! I had no idea I am so teary, I wonder if it’s a recent development or if I’ve always been like that and never noticed.

I am surprised too, already crying again. It is unlike me. Unfortunately I am still very upset about what made me cry last time. I suppose I’ve found my trigger point, because thinking about it I’m not sure I’ve cried about anything but this for at least a year or two. So maybe I just have a soft spot that’s unfortunately active at the moment. Hopefully this was the last of it for now and I can go back to my normal lack of crying..

I had my friend I mentioned with me this time. I don’t think I would’ve cried if she wasn’t there. I mentioned I had cried earlier about it and she wanted me to explain it to her to try and vent. She coaxed it out of me talking about it and being all assuring. There was quite a lot of conversation before I was even close to tears. At one point she said “you can cry yknow, it’s okay.” And I responded “I’m not about to cry” like that was a crazy thing for her to say, but I guess jokes on me cause I sure did.
I got to cry in a pillow she put on her lap so I was laying in front of her facing away from her. She rubbed my back and played with my hair, but no wiped or kissed tears since it all went in the pillow.

I don’t think it was all that intentional. I really didn’t think I would cry again so soon, and then it just snuck up on me. I think the natural instinct (at least mine) at that point is to shove your face in something.

Maybe I should have tried to see if she would’ve but I was crying quite hard and I guess felt that was different from a cute red face with a few tear streaks, ha. Still a value to be consoled, although like I said I think it kind of caused the crying in the first place.