Hey Someone, for me the observations you mention are the " Kick" to search the internet.
The sensations you describe are physical reactions to a stimulus,in this case a visual stimulus. There are a lot of activating and depressing substances/hormones/transmitters involved. I guess with a fetish there must be similar pathways to the feeling as there are in sexual arrousal.
i feel the same about the reproduction of the feeling as you do, after a few times of thinking about it goes away.
About the what is coming after: there is nothing better than having sex and think about crying, or even better: having sex after sheding tears together with your sex partner.

What you've described is sexual arousal. I feel that way both when I see someone cry/think about crying and when I'm looking at or kissing a man. For me, arousal includes butterflies in the stomach, increase in body temperature, chills, shortness of breath, and yes, pleasurable feelings radiating down to the crotch. For me personally, those feelings are a trigger to either masturbate or do something sexual with my boyfriend.

When I feel that feeling, as meantangerine said, the way to release it is to have an orgasm. And yes, if I see the same videos or think of the same scenarios over and over, I won't be as aroused by them because I become desensitized to them. On the other hand, I don't become desensitized to live observations (I guess because those are different every time) or unrelated sexual activity.

Long story short, as others have said, what you're feeling is completely normal sexual arousal.

Wow, thanks everyone, I understand my fetish a lot better now... I am 23 and have choosen to wait for marriage. Somehow I had a gut feeling that an orgasam was what came next, I just needed to confirm this and this is the right place to do it, I love our warm, friendly, understanding community, this is probably the best forum I have ever been a part of!