@Tearhunter - He was definitely attractive and I know I could have started fantasizing about him right then and there -- the only thing that stopped me was that it seemed quite wrong to do so in a church at a funeral service, yipes!!!!  I didn't know him or the deceased personally, so that accounts for my detachment in this situation, but still, I felt I had to postpone the fantasizing for moral reasons.  But I'm afraid with the passage of time, even just hours, it is harder to see and feel the moment quite as clearly.  And I'm sure I won't see this guy again, so I think that's WHY I started out fantasizing about him and the other guy (keeping it as REAL and exact as possible, because what beats REALITY, right?) but switched to someone else afterwards.  If I thought I might see this guy again, I would be secretly attracted to him,no doubt, and looking for excuses to see him again, just to see his face and keep imagining the tears and crying.

As for how he dealt with his tears, I can answer this somewhat.  I can't remember how he dealt with the tears during the speech (if there were any - he may have just welled up) as I was not up close and couldn't make out that sort of detail on his face (and was probably in SHOCK that I was getting a crying observation and not noticing every detail like that), but as for the sobbing part?  His face was buried the ENTIRE time on the other guy's shoulder, so that's where ALL his tears would have landed (on the guy's shirt).  He didn't lift his head at all.  The guy hugging him was slightly taller, so it seemed to work.  His face probably still would have been a bit wet after lifting off the shirt to sit down, but I wasn't close enough to see.  I would have kept an eye on him for the rest of the service to see if he cried again after that, but I couldn't see him through the crowd.  I'm sure he wouldn't have cried so dramatically if he hadn't been the one giving the speech.  It probably all built up during the speech and then, pow.  The more you hold back your emotions, the more forcefully they come gushing out later.  And there is probably some scientific explanation for why the more you hold your emotions back, the more likely you are to sob hard (which is why I allow myself to cry when I feel the need to... I would much rather let a few tears flow and show a bit of embarrassment than hold it all in, fail, and then make hard sobbing sounds).

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Thanks, Meantangerine -- I'm glad you were excited for me, because this is honestly a big deal for me, and sharing it with people who would understand what a big deal it was and feel happy for me is part of the whole experience, you know?  How I longed for this day to come!  Oops, put like that, that sounds cruel... well, you know what I mean!  It's not like I had anything to do with making this guy cry.  He was going to cry whether I was there or not.  It's just great to be able to share.

What's also great is that I almost feel like I can *relax* a bit now that I've had a recent obs (even though an interactive, comforting, lengthy type of obs is my number one).  What this obs lacked in interaction, it certainly made up for in intensity!  I can still hear those sobbing sounds.  And if I concentrate on them hard enough to make them real enough, they turn me on.  Not because of the way they "sound".  I think it's because I know they came from such real, deep emotions (in other words, I don't think an actor faking these sounds could turn me on... it would sound so weird!!  Yet an actor fake sniffling or fake sighing/ pretending to wipe tears away might still turn me on... if that makes any sense to anybody...)

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I know!  I take it as a sign that my fetish isn't as strong as it once was -- I'm obviously not thinking about it as much (even though I check this forum nearly every day!)  I personally welcome the diminishment of my fetish, since it's of little use to me, but if it were of actual use to me (like if I were in frequent contact with crying men), I think I'd like my fetish to be stronger, not weaker.

The crier was facing my direction (face buried on the comforter's shoulder) and the comforter's back was towards me so I couldn't see his expression, though luckily for me, this is the angle I preferred -- to see the crier's face, even if his face was buried!  Yes, it was definitely what I would call a tight squeeze.  Did he rub his back?  Probably at some point, yet I can't really remember.  The main thing was the steady, tight squeeze, and if he rubbed his back (which he probaby did), I'd say it would have been a firm type of rubbing.  I'm sure he must have uttered something at some point, even if just a gutteral sound, but guess what, I don't remember that either.  But the comforter basically seemed very strong and ready in his role -- at least this was the overall feeling I got.  He probably saw it coming moments before it happened and was ready for it (just a guess).

By the way, your comment on needing more intense crying for video enjoyment as compared to real life makes total sense... I think that in an up-close situation, much less intensity would be required to strike the same chord with me.  It's just been so long that I had forgotten that point... so thanks for reminding me.  In fact, now I remember picking my favorite all-time obs as one that I count as crying even though it didn't really involve crying... where a guy was struggling so hard to tell me a deep secret and trying not to cry and we were lying in a bed hugging each other... and he kept closing his eyes and chickening out, and I kept hugging him and told him that it was OK... that he could change his mind about telling me... but he insisted he was going to tell me (and finally did).  So, in real life, yeah... I think I can get quite a lot out of someone even just trying very hard *not* to cry!  Phew!

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