Amans lacrimae wrote:

Wow, first time in several years I read a self obs from you. Did any tears manage to roll down your cheeks? Did you feel the need to cry again later on afterwards?

This was one of the times when I was pretty aware of my crying situation and what I had been going through. But there was also a distance inside so i could notice myself tearing up as if i was an outside onlooker.  There was a tear rolling from one of my eyes and I wiped it with my hand. I felt more tears in my eyes but they drained quite quickly through my nose. I noticed that this is what occurs to me when I withhold tears. They get in my nose and it feels stuffy or tears roll from my nose. 
I felt like crying a little when I came back home a few hours after the funeral but I only teared up a few times. This time I let tears fall unchecked.
 

I cried in front of my mother many times and only once in front of my boyfriend that I had back then. He did comfort me but for some reason, he seemed displeased with my tears. If a sob it's a downpour with lots of sniffing and shaking.I also cried in the underground once while coming back from work on a bad day. There were a few people back then and I stayed seated tearing up now and then. I don't feel always that self-conscious about it but if I'm with people closer to me i find it more difficult to cry on some occasions.

I know that strangers won't care why I'm crying and won't ask too many questions during those moments, which puts me at ease.