Hey there, long time no see.
Watched a pretty good move that had its own crying scene that really hit me (The Meyorowitz Stories, Ben Stiller), and during that scene, the one where he cries, I definitely found myself crying too. Just hot tears down the sides of my cheeks. And then after, as the movie wrapped up, it felt right to cry again. I don't cry really unless someone gets mad/yells at me, so when I cry of my own volition, i try to get it all out at once. But this time, every time i tried to let out a sob i just had to yawn. But many many hot tears. Felt good but fully crying would have felt more cathartic.

Now, the time i FULL on cried before that? Very cathartic. Had this realization that the person i love loves me as a friend, and i may just have to come to terms with that being all it ever is. Moment I drove away from her, turned on some classic sad girl jams and starting crying. Was funny to imagine peoples looks and reactions as i stopped at an intersection. Very stressful though because my GPS kepy rudely interrupting lol. More cries lately than usual. Ive been the therapist friend lately, and I like that role- i like to be able to lead people to greater happiness. But I've held 4 or so friends as they've sobbed lately amd wiped their tears from their cheeks (and I will not be making obs of them, I'm not comfortable doing that) and it maked me so sad sometimes that i am not held while I do. Ive noticed a taste to my tears lately- tangy and sweet like lemonade. Odd, as im at my healthiest now- but maybe thats how tears of sadness taste.

Omg little silly thing i did tonight though- when i cried my face got COVERED in tears after a while (i was leaning back at first and they pooled around my ears and jaw-  and then leaned forward and they weny down my nose and down my jaw/chin to my neck and chest. Anyway, used my tears as extra skincare. Probably not good for me but it fely oddly comforting. Little tear face massage. 10/10 reccomend.

Honestly, I'm just a little lonely and drunk and I felt like you guys would somewhat understand.
Tell me about the last time you really cried- how did you feel after? Does anyone hold ypu, wipe your tears, kiss your head, hold your hand? I hope they do. If you cry alone as I did tonight my heart is with you. Even though we all live in very different worlds, if you cry tonight, you do not cry alone. At least, that is what I'm choosing to believe.