well, i managed to cry recently! sort of. it wasn't a very satisfying self-obs, it was just dry sobbing. i teared up a little bit, but i didn't properly cry. i'm hoping i can get past that hurdle and shed some actual tears sometime soon. at least i did sob for a while, after a few very stressful days. i was being held by my partner. she stroked my hair and reassured me it was alright to cry. not a pleasant experience, but something of a cathartic one.