for some people its a habit. its a way to protect themselves from getting to close to someone and they dont know how to stop being that way. sometimes they fear letting someone inside so they get in the habit of pushing them away.

But you can't let him tie you in knots like this. For us women its so hard because we see the best in people and we see what they could be. Every time someone shows is their dark side and we think we learned poor lesson we see the his in then again and our hearts forget.we tend to think we can love the bad out of someone and its so hard to let that go

inmyarms wrote:

But you can't let him tie you in knots like this. For us women its so hard because we see the best in people and we see what they could be. Every time someone shows is their dark side and we think we learned poor lesson we see the his in then again and our hearts forget.we tend to think we can love the bad out of someone and its so hard to let that go

Oh dear, I know, your words struck me greatly !!! It is so true what you said here. I long for that forbbiden, lost paradise where the monster turns to a prince and i'm part of it..and on top of it he sheds tears, ters of saddnes for not having realised beforehand that it's easy to be good after all....

It's soo utophian and yet i didn't get enough of it. Luckily i keep myself away, i preserve my distance trying not to get myself entangled in his knots..I guess i'm deceiving myself once again. He'll never change, he'll never attone or admit what i want to see..

I don't think i love the ''bad'' in him but yet, i always think he's not ''that bad'', that there's a misunderstanding somehow that we can go through, that i can transform him no matter how hard it gets for me..In the process i only transform myself, actually..
And i want truly to be able to let this go, not to permit to be deceived again..but it's damn hard !

Changing the subject yet, i learned english when i was 10, i started by being given private lessons, then i learned it in highschool and at the university. I'm fond of foreign languages but am not yet, that proficient as i need to...I guess i learned some of them gradually and it happened only with English and French. As far as my third language, Russian i couldn't study it properly in college and i don't use it..

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More or less, he's at times too coarse to be a true seducer. He seems very insecure emotionally and plays the tough guy. And i told him so many times i like sensitive types, those who show their softer side and he rejects this type as if it offends his more masculine image he so much enjoys projecting ( he mostly struggles to project a very tough image, macho-like).

He did show me pictures of him crying though...He said he was not involved emotionally because he played some role such as an actor, as to elicit tears. He said he can do that but  that he doesn't want to disclose more..I left him alone..He'a very weird person. he does show traces of vulnerability but on very rare ocasions.

That must have felt very nice. Keep doing whatever it is that bright that out. Crying is a skill that for some puerile required practice. Those more you do this the Mir satisfying you'll be ache to get there.