A lot of you people on the board tend not to cry themselves. I would like to know why you stopped crying because as kids we all cry until a certain age.
​I go first and tell you some of my earlier crying experiences which made me to stop crying myself.
​As a matter of fact I was a good pupil, came out of a intact familiy and didn't have a lot to worry about. Maybe we were not rich, I didn't get new clothes, just second hand and sometimes we just had potatoes to eat because there was no money left to buy anything else, but generally I guess I didn't have a reason to be sad or cry a lot. When I grew older and was around 7 or 8 years old my grandma started bothering my mom with suicide. Grandma called all the time and wanted to spend time with us, otherwise she would kill herself and blame us for it. Not an easy situation especially for my mother, who wanted to protect me. I learned later, that my grandmother also had a suicide attempt when my mother was still at School. My mom found her coming home after school when she tried to kill herself with her gas stove.  Grandma died eventually around that time and we guess up until now, that she took some sleeping pills to take her life.
​Around that time my mom got depressed too and didn't have the empathy to understand a first grader like I was. I remember that one time I was crying in front of her which was the last time I just let the emotions go, because there was no comfort from her, so why cry?
​I came home from school and cried because the others teased me because of my good grades. I told her that I felt like a puppet just doing what everyone wanted from me but not being able to be myself. I was sitting in front of the piano and my mom draged my away, holding me on my clothes (not touching my body, just the clothes....) because she didn't want to fall my tears on the keyboard. She carried me to my bed and threw me on the mattress not being able to console me.
​No accusation, I am a grown up now, going my own way, standing on my own feet, my mom still living, still depressed and I wouldn't be astonished if she took her own life one day, just like her mother did. But at that time it was the last time I cried in front of her. Up until now I am not able to cry in front of others, I can't remember a single time I was comforted by somebody. I posted before, there are some times I cried, once in front of a therapist and surely once or twice in front of my husband.
​Now I would be interested if you have similar experiences why your tears dried out and you don't cry anymore. I hope it is not too personal :-( Otherwise just excuse me and don't answer!!