Thanks for your input, flatter!  I like the idea of what you said... reaching out to other people through crying-related art and touching a spot that gets them talking about their problems.  That is a different pursuit than what I was thinking about, I think (I was wondering if I could find out people's quirkiest non-sexual fetish fantasies and make them come true both for the reward of it and taking focus off my own fetish problems, unless they wanted to return the favour, of course, and it's easier to tell someone about your fetish if they told you theirs first)....... but what you describe is certainly no less relevant for discussion!!

My only artistic skills are acting/improv and music, although, ironically, I am almost exclusively interested in performing comedy!  I guess I am not a very 'serious' person... more of a light, playful person... but maybe I could pull something off in video format... easier than a live audience, I think... will try to think what sort of video I could make... 

BTW, cute story (maybe).  I auditioned for a dramatic stage role once and tried to do my lines really seriously (as though I was on the verge of crying) and then cringed at my own attempt... realized I was purposely breathing loudly and heavily in an attempt to "seem" more emotional... it's a wonder they didn't die of laughter... appreciate that they kept a straight face... I giggle about it now... pant, pant, pant, pant... I must have sounded like a thirsty dog or something... yep, that was me trying really hard (a bit TOO hard) to be serious.  I would be better than that now, though. 
 

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So glad you posted that, Meantangerine!  ANY sharing and discussion is good, in my opinion... at least regarding the threads I start, I certainly don't mind things veering off in a different direction from where they begin... especially in a group as small as this, I don't see the need to worry about that!  

So cool to hear about what's been happening with you.  I have been exploring the other side, at least mentally speaking.  The dominant side.  Like you, it's primarily the power exchange I'm interested in.  It's not where I started out with my sexual interests, but it was so much more commonplace than this fetish that I exposed myself to a bit of dialogue on it and sort of grew into it and am feeling rather intrigued.  Although like with my crying fetish, I seem to have a preference for everyone keeping their clothes on and just treating it like a kind of mind play, basically.  But mind play that stirs more than just the mind... ;)

Although most pics I see online still don't excite me, I feel like the conversation prior to a scene would be exciting.  Like, the thought of discussing where his boundaries are, thus exposing where his vulnerabilities are.  It's still about the man's vulnerability for me... I don't think that will ever change.  It's just that I did not see myself as dominant before.  BUT my thought is, even if a guy wants to be dominated in a non-nurturing way, it is still being sweet to him as you are giving that guy what he craves deep inside... so a win-win.  I like the thought of giving a threat I'll never actually carry out but letting them feel that rush of fear they want to feel.  Most of all, although the sub actually controls the situation (because they can stop anything at any time with a safeword), I like the thought of getting to experience a sense of control... which for me feels like getting what you want, basically... you're getting the vulnerability you want out of them through controlling them and the circumstances... not by waiting around hoping vulnerability will happen spontaneously (like the crying fetish) or stepping on eggshells trying to get an emotional conversation going, but by aggressively taking them when and how YOU want them... not only is that a rush, but there is an even bigger rush that they TRUST you with that power... it is that sense of intimacy... they trust you to do things to them... crazy things!!  It would obviously be such a turn-off if there wasn't that trust and intimacy involved.  It is their willingness to play this way... no... their passionate burning DESIRE to play this way... that really interests me.  A genuine sub... anything less than that (say, someone just trying to make me happy by playing the role) is probably not going to interest me... I will know... I want them to want the vulnerability... I want it to be real...

Anyway, thanks for the tip on the r/BDSMcommunity subreddit!

 

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Had to read that a few times.  I get it now.  A scene within a scene, almost.

If I had finished my fic from a while back (it was about an actor who negotiated a crying/comforting scene with a client to indulge her fetish), it would have gone from him crying (acting) professionally as planned for a while to him slipping into his own sudden urges to cry on a woman's shoulder for real (without him *telling* her he had switched to being himself) and then a third switch to him confessing that he had left the acting/character behind a while ago and continuing to cry and be comforted by her 'off the clock'.  Three different dynamics for crying and comforting, each with its own unique appeal.  Maybe I will finish the fic someday, although now the plot is ruined. ;) 

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tearhunter wrote:

If I understand what you are saying you'd love to be able to set up a kind of service where you could help people release their emotions as a way of helping them but at the same time (a kind of secret payment) you get to enjoy your fetish by see them cry.

It's so great to see you posting here again, Tearhunter!!    But (*looks up at original post and scratches head*) I guess I didn't make myself clear on this post... hmm... but it's OK!  I know I go in so many different directions that it's hard to tell where I'm at sometimes,  No, I wasn't thinking of helping people release their emotions as a way of helping them.  I was thinking about making people's quirkiest fetish fantasies come true (as long as they weren't physically sexual).  I was thinking it would be fun and intrinsically rewarding to make someone else feel happy.  And that it would take my mind off myself for a change.   And yes, if they really wanted to return the favour, I know what I would request, but that was kind of a side point... ;)  

But yeah... there's always safety... and I wish there was a way of taking the sexual connotation out of it... or that people were way more chilled about sexual connotation.  I just wish people would get together at parties and say, Hey, tonight let's do weird things to each other!  That sounds like fun!  What is everyone's weirdest desires?  Let's indulge everyone's strangest fantasies!  And one person has a thing for playing with people's elbows, so they get a turn playing with people's elbows.  And someone else wants to be worshipped.  And someone else wants to be punished.  And someone else wants weird things shoved into their belly button.  And someone like me wants to see real tears roll down a guy's face.  And then get together with that guy later to do it over and over if they're any good at it. ;)  And continue to shove weird things into their belly button. ;)  'Cause I'd want to make them happy just like they'd be making me happy... it's not fair otherwise...

I've got it!  I've just got to invent a board game called Your Strangest Desires and market it and sell millions of copies so it becomes the norm for partiers everywhere.  That shouldn't be too hard, right? ;) 

In all seriousness... I guess kinksters are the most open-minded people out there for talking about and indulging other people's unique fantasies... maybe despite my hesitation, I have to embrace that community and have faith that there are others who are like me who are not interested in doing physically sexual things and not strongly into BDSM either but do want to indulge weird fetishes... ?  

Or... if I'm brave enough, perhaps could I facilitate a party like the one I described??  It would be putting myself out there for sure... scared... wish someone else would take the lead... but I would totally attend a party like that!

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