Chris wrote:
Sex: male
Orientation: straight, bisexual
Age: 39
Location: born in Moscow, Russia. Last year I lived both in Istanbul, Turkiye and Beograd, Serbia.
Interested in: female crying (also feminine male, not masculine), both emotional comforting and sexual, cry sobbing, lip curl, chin tremble, flowing tears, ugly crying, sounds of crying and sobbing (both female and male)
Interest in the forum:
Being a part of the dacryphilia community. Recently, thanks to my psychotherapist, I realized that everything is ok with me and that crying is just my sexual fetish. While talking about my love for crying, I felt deep shame, and my therapist said to me that, up to her, it is completely not something one should be embarrassed for. It was a deep insight for me. Afterwards, I began to read about how fetishes appear and found a paper about dacryphilia with a link to this forum. It was a great relief to find a place where people could freely talk about crying and feel calm and comforted. I am just reading topics and getting relaxed. My second interest in the forum is to find and share crying videos. It is not uncommon to lose a favorite YouTube video because it is in a deleted playlist.
Your own crying: I had sexual crying fantasies from my early childhood. I remember that I imagined how I was saving and comforting the girls I liked or my school's female teachers. At the same time, I was deeply embarrassed and felt a great deal of shame for crying myself out in public. I have never cried in school, only rather rarely at home. The stereotype that "boys don't cry" deeply entered my mind. The whole of my adult life—more than 20 years—I thought that there was something wrong with me—that I found crying to be sexual. I felt a great shame about this and told no one about it. I felt ashamed even to pronounce the verb "to cry". So more than 20 years before I began psychotherapy, I did not cry at all, and I even could not realize what it was to cry. But being alone, I touched my eyes with soap or just held them widely open without winking to cause tears, and I masturbated. Being in relationships, I was ashamed to admit my love for crying. I often had sex failures. 5.5 years ago, being in depression and having an existential deep crisis, I unexpectedly got sobbed on my third psychotherapy session. The next time was two years ago, at the cartoon. I was alone in the cinema and had a deep catharsis. It was deep relaxation, and I was so excited that I took a selfie of me in tears with curled lips and posted it in an Instagram story. Since then, I sometimes cry during psychotherapy sessions or during movies, and it is a great feeling of relief. It is so healing to cry. I feel sexual arousal during my own crying.
Other fetishes: femdom, BBW, pissing, ass walking, loud moaning, romantic male sex
Yourself in general: I am liberal. Introvert. Work in IT. I am a fan of Formula 1. I like electronic music. I like reading. Like cooking. Fashion and style addict. Marvel fan. Alcohol and cigarettes free. I have tattoes, piercings and dreadlocks. Coffee addict. Vegetarian. Have two kids.
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