Crying Lovers / Odd Self Obs (f) (long and rambly)

**Posted by ComfortCasanovette** September 2, 2024 5:45 am

Hey there, long time no see.
Watched a pretty good move that had its own crying scene that really hit me (The Meyorowitz Stories, Ben Stiller), and during that scene, the one where he cries, I definitely found myself crying too. Just hot tears down the sides of my cheeks. And then after, as the movie wrapped up, it felt right to cry again. I don't cry really unless someone gets mad/yells at me, so when I cry of my own volition, i try to get it all out at once. But this time, every time i tried to let out a sob i just had to yawn. But many many hot tears. Felt good but fully crying would have felt more cathartic.

Now, the time i FULL on cried before that? Very cathartic. Had this realization that the person i love loves me as a friend, and i may just have to come to terms with that being all it ever is. Moment I drove away from her, turned on some classic sad girl jams and starting crying. Was funny to imagine peoples looks and reactions as i stopped at an intersection. Very stressful though because my GPS kepy rudely interrupting lol. More cries lately than usual. Ive been the therapist friend lately, and I like that role- i like to be able to lead people to greater happiness. But I've held 4 or so friends as they've sobbed lately amd wiped their tears from their cheeks (and I will not be making obs of them, I'm not comfortable doing that) and it maked me so sad sometimes that i am not held while I do. Ive noticed a taste to my tears lately- tangy and sweet like lemonade. Odd, as im at my healthiest now- but maybe thats how tears of sadness taste.

Omg little silly thing i did tonight though- when i cried my face got COVERED in tears after a while (i was leaning back at first and they pooled around my ears and jaw- and then leaned forward and they weny down my nose and down my jaw/chin to my neck and chest. Anyway, used my tears as extra skincare. Probably not good for me but it fely oddly comforting. Little tear face massage. 10/10 reccomend.

Honestly, I'm just a little lonely and drunk and I felt like you guys would somewhat understand.
Tell me about the last time you really cried- how did you feel after? Does anyone hold ypu, wipe your tears, kiss your head, hold your hand? I hope they do. If you cry alone as I did tonight my heart is with you. Even though we all live in very different worlds, if you cry tonight, you do not cry alone. At least, that is what I'm choosing to believe.

**Posted by Amans lacrimae** September 2, 2024 2:31 pm

I find it interesting that you mentioned your face became wet with tears (I guess tear streaks were no longer distinguishable) while in your introductory post you mention your tear streaks are always visible and are just a few.

Also, I find it curious that your healthy tears taste like lemonade, I would have never thought of that.

Only two questions about your four obs: 1. Were they male or female? 2. When you comforted them and wiped their tears, was it one on one or was anyone else present?

**Posted by ComfortCasanovette** September 2, 2024 8:37 pm

So it's a funny thing, they usually are always just lots of tear streaks, but I guess because I cried in two different positions i think the streaks got all mixed up. But you know what, my skin looks great today, so I'm not too mad about that.

I don't really wanna share any details about them if thats okay- I know it's not like they'd come on here and see it, but there's some part of me that just wants to respect their privacy. Sorry friend!! Now, if at some point I have a friend or partner who shares in this special intrest, I'll be happy to share obs with their permission!

**Posted by Amans lacrimae** September 2, 2024 9:58 pm

I never thought a tear based skin therapy, you must look pretty aesthetic with lots of tear streaks adorning your heart shaped face.

I just wondered if they were male or female as, in my experience, females are usually less self conscious when having their tears taken care of in front of others than men.

**Posted by ComfortCasanovette** September 2, 2024 11:39 pm

Oh, I agree on both accounts. As a generalized obs, as I've seen both men and women cry, women tend to let you hold them, hold their hand, wipe their tears, and men will sometimes let you hold them, but not always. And as far as aestheticism I very much have to agree. Lately I've tended to take pictures after I cry because i actually think it makes me look very pretty.

**Posted by Amans lacrimae** September 3, 2024 12:00 am

Wow, I would love if you shared pics in the forum.