carrotcake wrote:

Not incredibly hard this time, but there were a few seconds of silent, heaving sobs. Mostly I was talking, and sometimes I'd stop because I was crying, but in those instances, it was more of a prolonged holding of breath before I could inhale again.

Silent sobs can be very sexy. There's always the wonder as to whether they'll get harder and the anticipation of the inhale of breath. My friend Alicia tends to sob silently at times for prolonged periods. She likes to sit on my lap, facing me with her legs straddled, and I can just feel her whole body racked with silent sobs.

cribdeaths wrote:

I cry so much I have seemingly permanent lines under my eyes

That sounds like pretty powerful crying.

To update...my friend and I said goodbye. She was sort of numb, I was misty eyed. It hurt, but it could have hurt worse.

I thought about taking a selfie of my wet eyes to show on here, but it seemed a little odd at the time. Afterwards I needed distractions so I piled a few friends in my Jeep and we drove up to the mountains and went skinny dipping by starlight. Then had a campfire and beer till two a.m. Best kind of consolation.

Ella wrote:

caircair wrote:

I absolutely LOATHE crying, especially in front of others. I hold it in as long as I can - and deny that anything is wrong - until I simply can't hold it any more and then I lock myself in a room and let go, hating myself all the while.

What's weird is that my big crying fetish involves comforting others - but I just can't STAND it when anyone tries to comfort me! Not only am I uncomfortable, but I also get angry with the other person - HOW DARE THEY intrude on my privacy that way?!!

This in the quotes very much applies to me as well. I'm not naturally much of a crier and I've gotten good at fighting it when necessary.

Knowing there was something emotional in the future, especially if in an inescapable public setting, would bring me a lot of anxiety on how I was going to avoid crying.

I feel sort of similar. It's not even necessarily the visibility of the setting, just that I'm dreading the oncoming ache and know that crying will make me feel worse rather than better. Though some of the women on here might enjoy seeing a big, burly, bearded lumber-jack looking guy like me dissolving into a teary mess, I'll just be feeling horrible. 

And to echo what was said above, I'm sorry for your troubles, Caircair, and I hope you won't do anything drastic with regards to "never waking up."
 

Netsoy wrote:

What is your definition of "wet cryer"?  How many tears have to come out?

Not really a specific quantity. Just enough that it seems pronounced. Like when my shoulder is thoroughly soaked afterwards, or I can feel them landing on me.