TorNorth wrote:

@Flatter: It was a very constipated cry, and so it gave me no relief. I think I'm too used to clenching emotions to let it out properly. I became a little tearful today as well. I pounded the bed with my fist and then had my fist on my forehead. My eyes teared up.

@meantangerine: Yes I'm willing, by pm.

It  can take concious practice to overcome the ingrained habit of withholding crying necessary for release.
There's a small book i saw, an ebook called stength within tears in which the author explains how he went about that. It might interest you.
I hope things get better
 

Oh, wow...Love the image! Thank you for sharing! You are quite handsome, so that makes it even more appealing to me! I am so sorry you are having such a rough time, TorNorth. Crying after you haven't for a long time is very difficult. I cry all the time, so I am not speaking from experience, but from watching what my husband went through. He was not a crier at all when we met, and the first time he cried was so hard for him. It was like I had to consciously, emotionally "push" him by holding him, saying it would be OK, he was safe with me, let it go, etc...it was such a hard cry when he finally let it out. So many years of anger and pain came flooding out of him. Now - 10 years later, he is the most sensitive person and cries very easily if he has to. Then again, in those ten years, we have lost numerous pets and family, including his mother AND father, so I do believe that loss and hardship definitely play a part in people letting go.
Where are you from, by the way? I meant to ask you if your username meant something? Also, would you be willing to share what you videotaped with us? If not publicly on the forum, could you please PM me with it? I am looking forward to it! Again,I am sorry you are dealing with whatever it is you are dealing with, but I am very glad that you were able to let some of it out. Best wishes! 

@missyjdma: I'm glad you could help draw it out of your husband. Unfortunately, my wife couldn't be beside me at that time through no fault of her own. I live in the UK though I'm of South Asian descent. My username has no reflection on that. I'm not showing the video, but I can show more screencaps through pm.

@woundedpuppy: unfortunately I haven't managed to capture more than single tears. The one time I shed multiple tears was not filmed. That picture was taken right after I sobbed and shed several tears.

Hey... TorNorth that's definitely a tear. Glad things are getting better.