Hello everyone, please call me Dee. I'm male, bisexual. 28 years old. I currently live in the Midwest in an apartment with my boyfriend, Henry. I'm diagnosed with autism, PTSD, OCD, and major depressive disorder. I'm medicated, recovering, and doing much better than I was in my early 20s, but I still experience symptoms, including frequent, uncontrollable episodes of crying.

My boyfriend is the one who encouraged me to join this forum, as he thinks it would benefit me to talk more openly about my crying, as it's something that I only share with him, at the moment. I also have an interest in other people's crying, both men and women, particularly the aesthetics of tears and the reasons that people cry. I have difficulty identifying my emotions, so I'm interested to hear what other people feel when they cry.

I was not encouraged to cry as a child, and in fact punished severely for it, so up until recently, I never cried at all. But now, as I have mentioned, I cry frequently. The way that I cry varies. Sometimes I will have fits of sobbing where my eyes produce very few tears. Other times, I will sob very softly, with a heavy flow of tears. Occasionally there are only tears, no sobbing. I used to cover my face and scrub away any tears, but lately I have been letting them flow freely, in an effort to get more comfortable with the act of crying. Sometimes Henry will wipe the tears away for me, but usually I prefer he holds my hands, as my face is very sensitive to touch.

I also have certain medical conditions, including migraines that make it difficult to look at a computer screen, so I've given Henry the password to this account and permission to post about me or himself if he wants to. 

I hope that's sufficient as an introduction!