my earliest dac memories are mostly movies and tv to my recollection, alice in wonderland in particular was a fixation i didn't really understand but couldn't shake.

for real life, i don't know if it was my first time, but i clearly remember being at a neighborhood/community pool and one of the other kids was crying while wearing swim goggles. i could see the tears collecting and visibly pooling inside her goggles. i don't even know why she was crying, i didn't know her, but i couldn't help staring at her and the obvious volume of tears she'd been crying. it makes sense that's the kind of thing that stuck with me, given my tastes in crying as an adult.

caircair wrote:

Especially if the full-on uncontrollable ugly sobbing is happening in spite of the crier's wishes. There's something about when someone (for me, a man) loses control and cries with a bit of humiliation thrown in. It makes the idea of comforting him that much more appealing.

yes, absolutely. there’s nothing like when someone fights as hard as they can not to cry but can’t stop or stifle it and absolutely falls apart when the dam breaks.

Amans lacrimae wrote:

Hearing her boyfriend is shy, I reply: "I'll wait for him and hope he is interested." And after hearing her try to sing: "You have an extremely beautiful voice, I love how it breaks and the way you sob as tears stream down your cheeks in multiple streaks, you have no idea how much I would love to get to know you better and have the opportunity to wipe and, if you allow me, kiss your tears as I comfort you as best as I can."

It takes time for Anya to compose herself enough to respond, her face slowly growing soaked with tears, her whole body shaking with near-silent sobs. Tears drip onto her knees and run down her legs, falling constantly from her closed eyes.

Eventually, she opens her eyes and squints at the screen, giggling wetly. "You're very kind," she says, her voice obviously strained from sobbing. "I hope you enjoyed the show. I'll see you all next time."

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The next time Anya starts a stream, she hasn't started to cry quite yet. she sits calmly in her chair, spinning it slowly side to side in front of the camera, sipping from a water bottle, waiting for her audience. She has a pillow with her this time, hugged to her chest as she waits.

NeedHerSobs wrote:

I would love to see you cry again. But only if you want and need to.

Anya smiles. "That's very sweet of you. I suppose it's a little sad to say I always want to cry, but I do, and this way, I get my feelings out, and you get to see me crying."

Amans lacrimae wrote:

I think, if you're up to it, this one also involves your boyfriend, I'd love to see him hold your thighs and/or calves as you cry, hopefully sob, curled up in his arms. If he gives your thighs comforting pats as he kisses your tears, every now and then wiping your tear streaks, but mainly caress, pat and/or give comforting squeezes to your thighs/calves.

"My boyfriend's pretty shy, I'll try to get him on for another stream sometime soon. In the meantime..." Anya brings her legs up and turns her chair sideways slightly, so the camera shows the sides of her legs as she hugs her knees to her chest.

Amans lacrimae wrote:

“Hello Anya, I’d love to hear you try to sing Unbreak my heart as you cry, are you up for the task?”

Anya reads the request aloud, then nods. Still hugging herself, one hand squeezing her calf gently, she hums briefly, then starts to sing. "Don't leave me in all this pain, don't leave me out in the rain, come back and bring back my smile, come and take these tears away..." her voice wavers, weak from crying but not quite breaking yet, and her eyes fill up with tears that cling to her lashes, threatening to fall. "I need your arms to hold me now, the nights are so unkind, bring back those nights when I held you beside me..."

The tears start to fall, trailing down Anya's cheeks and dripping onto her knees. She hugs herself tighter and keeps singing. "Un-break my heart, say you'll love me again, undo this hurt you caused, when you walked out the door—" Anya's voice breaks. She hiccups a sob, tears falling quicker, but she doesn't stop. "[i]And walked out of my life, un-cry these tears, I cried so many nights, un-break my

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here's the full playlist, though i think you found pretty much all of them! the channel creator shared the unlisted playlist with this board.