Hello there internet strangers.
God, how sad is this. I'm close to so few people. I grew up awkward, different. I was an odd child. On the spectrum. Sweet, beautiful, self depricating. Self hating. I'm a lovely person now, but i lack closeness in a platonic sense. The only people I love romantically love me platonically. My heart is heavy. I treat alchohol like a numbing agent. I come by it honestly.
Tonight, I cry in my heart, but I am so lonely. I crave the intimacy of crying with one of you. Any of you so long as you dont harm me. My heart is scarred for this month from an event that left me afraid of of affection, but I wish I could be held as i outwardly sob. I feel my cries unreleased in the center of my chest, bloated like a meal undigested. I need to scream and cry and sob against someone's chest, til my tears run down their shirt and stain it wet, til my aching sobs ring through like a bell in your chest as well as mine. How would you hold me? What would you say? How would you comfort me as i weep? I long to live in this role play, fake as it may be, in the pain of my present isolation. Paint me a picture, fiction as it may be. How would you hold me? Woukd you cry with me, sob for sob, shudder for shudder of breath unrestrained?

For referance, unabashadly, perhaps boastingly, i am beautiful. Soft and supple figured. Big, dark eyes full of tears unshed. Prominent cheekbones and a dimpled chin. Curly hair the color of wheat with warm streaks of warm chocolate. My stomach, chest, full of sobs, my eyes full of tears. Allow mw this in my soft intoxication: what would you do? How would you hold me, soothe me, allow my tears to fall? How would you get me to sob, and further more, comfort me as i do, if only to fufill this pounding ache in my chest?

Forgive me this ask, acheing as it is. I need to feel close to someone, anyone, in my unshed tears

So it's a funny thing, they usually are always just lots of tear streaks, but I guess because I cried in two different positions i think the streaks got all mixed up. But you know what, my skin looks great today, so I'm not too mad about that.

I don't really wanna share any details about them if thats okay- I know it's not like they'd come on here and see it, but there's some part of me that just wants to respect their privacy. Sorry friend!! Now, if at some point I have a friend or partner who shares in this special intrest, I'll be happy to share obs with their permission!

Stressed today and just need to see some g-d good acting. List me off some of the best movies you know with male crying scenes. The requirements?

An actual breakdown, not just teary eyes or something. This may or may not sound weird but I need the catharsis of someone else sobbing because I just don't have the energy to right now.

-Preferably "hot" peoole but I use this term loosely. When I saw hot I don't mean conventionally attractive necessarily. Certainly not "pretty criers." Use your best judgement. If you think they're hot, I probably will too.

-a dude. A guy. A man. What have you.

Bonus points if the movie is:

Tragic
Compelling
Emotional throughout
Super gay
Well-written
Has prettt cinematography
Not something I'd necesarrily have seen before. Id rather watch something unique tonight. Ready set go, try to get back to me quick!

Hulu: Lost, This is Us, 9 Perfect Strangers, Normal People, AHS, The Exorcist, Love Me, Under the Banner of Heaven

Showtime: Your Honor

Max: Succession, This Much I Know is True, Barry

Netflix: One Day, Breaking Bad (I know you already mentioned it, but still) Midnight Mass (to some degree- lots of teariness, not always a bunch of like, full on crying.) Outer Banks

VOD: Southland

Prime: Animal Kingdom, The Leftovers, Expats

Enjoy

Leo Woodall noticably tears up/sheds tears/sobs several times in Netlix's One Day miniseries.

In episode 5, in one scene with his mom tears up sonewhat. Just after, during one scene with his father, his eyes fill up with tears. Only a short while later, leaving a voicemail for his friend, he tears up, voice cracks, sheds a tear and gasp-sob-cries for a breif little while. Wish the music was quieter in that scene.

In episode 12, during a conversation with the same friend about his daughter, voice cracks and I think he sheds like 2 tears.

Later in the same episode, holds back tears until she leaves the room and can't keep them at bay anymore. Not so much sobbing, but deeply emotional nonetheless.

In episode 14, which I will not spoil the reasons why he cries, he is emotional throughout most of the episode. He drunkenly sort of cries for a moment early in the episode. About midway through, he has a longish scene where he sobs on his childhood bed. No tears that you can really see, but again, very emotional. Later on, he sheds several several tears. You see them drip down the tip of his nose as he's looking down. Tremendous actor, you absolutely feel his pain