Hugh said this was the most emotionally difficult and draining role he ever played.  They literally had psychiatrists on set to help the actors cope with the stuff playing this role brought up for them

I'm assuming from context that you're visually impaired? Maybe I can help you find videos with good sound or good sound effects?

I don't have a device other than my phone so I can't fill it out.  For me it's the aesthetician not seeing pain.  I think tears are beautiful. I think sobs are musical.  I am drawn the way crying looks and feels and to the way it removes barriers and invites connection.  There's no bdsm aspect for me

Don't know if this is an article,  essay, blog? But it's a woman's account of a friend guiding her through an epic crying, wailing session in the woods to get through some hard time.  It's like a movie in your mind.
https://ynysafallon.com/writings/the-keening

Oh I love this thread.  I recall I've admiring a particularly large soaked area on my pillow and clothes. I even took a picture of it though I don't know if I still have it