Amans lacrimae wrote:

I wonder, why is she so hesitant to show her emotions to John? I guess it's a good time to ask since he is not here to make her feel uncomfortable.
Hey Chris, are you having communication issues with John, any trust issues, has he ever made you feel uncomfortable crying? As I say this I caress your hair and cheek.

 
As I slightly lean into your hand that is caressing my cheek i begin slowly "Well its just that he's not very good with emotions. I mean he loves me I know that, but I mean with stronger emotions. He's not really one to comfort me shall we say. Sometimes I feel silly for crying when no-one is there to comfort me. Like I shouldn't be crying. He never told me I shouldn't cry however. I guess its just more of an insecurity thing on my part." I slowly say blushing as I've never told anyone this before.

My heart started racing. I was excited and nervous at the same time. I've always wanted John to comfort me and with Ray here it seemd like the perfect opportunity. He knew exactly how I liked to be comforted and would be the perfect person to teach/show John how.

"Sure I'd like that." I said with a smile on my face.

"Mind if we just stay here?" I ask nervously wondering how he was planning on Showing John.

As we pull away from the hug I calld John back into the room.

"Would you mind if Ray stayed for dinner? He's only going to be here for a couple more hrs then he has to go catch a plane." I explained after asking.

"Sure." John said quickly disappearing back into the kitchen to finish whatever he was working on.

Those kind words really meant a lot to me and seemed to be a bit more touching than they were meant to as I could feel my eyes starting to fill up with tears again. Not sure why I was getting so emotional today but whatever the reason I vowed to myself that I wasn't going to hold back.