After listening intentively he replies lovingly that that both taking care of my tears as well as when my thighs and calves jiggle in his hands is a sense of utmost love and trust for him. With my tears he feels I trust him with my soul; with my thighs and calves he feels I trust him with my body. He feels like he's not trusted when people react differently.

"Well I certainly never meant to make you feel like that. It's nothing against you, I swear. It's my own personal thing, as I've mentioned. But I'm trying my hardest to improve so I can feel confident in giving you everything you want." I reply sincerely.

He replies asking if I think I'll reach my goal by our wedding day or at least feel comfortable by then with his gestures or if they're is anything else he could do to help me achieve them. I then feel him caress my inner thigh gently (my thigh didn't even jiggle).

I take his questions seriously and take a moment before answering. "Yes, I do think I'll reach my goal by our wedding, but I'm not sure how comfortable I'll be with your gestures unless we start working on that now. I mean our wedding is not just about me you need to be happy too." I say trying to explain as best as I could. "Please don't worry about NOT making my thighs jiggle today. we need a place to start and what is a better opportunity than this." I blurt out nearly without thinking.