1 | Crying Fiction » Truth or Dare » June 23, 2020 10:57 pm |
- azutid
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Hello! I just thought I'd let you guys know that, since I start my mission at the end of this week, I've decided not to continue Truth or Dare. I've been kept busy with all the preparations for it, so I haven't found the time to write anything. I will also be absent from this forum for the next year and a half while I'm on my mission. I would like to focus on the work I'll be doing, and I feel like I would become distracted if I continued posting here.
I've really enjoyed the time I've spent on this forum! You guys are awesome, and I hope this year and next year will be amazing for each one of you! Also, thank you for all the kind comments you guys have said about Truth or Dare. I loved writing it while it lasted!
P.S. If you guys would like to continue the story, feel free!
| Crying Discussion » Has anyone else read a book that made them ugly-cry? If so, what book? » June 19, 2020 2:54 am |
- azutid
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Amans lacrimae wrote:azutid wrote:Amans lacrimae wrote:
What gestures have your brothers had when you cry in front of them?It was a couple years ago, but I think they just sat there, a little bit shocked. My dad was also there, so he gave me a hug and talked to me privately to figure out why I was so upset. I think my brothers did nothing because I'm usually pretty even-keeled--it must have surprised them to see me cry. I usually hide my crying pretty well.
I do remember one time, a few years ago, when one of my brothers started crying because I was crying. That time, he gave me a hug and told me that he loved me.A lot of thinking with this response of yours, first you had me look for the meaning of even-keeled
, I didn't know what it meant, fortunately I found the meaning online. Second, I thought the most intimate act one could have towards another was to kiss or at least wipe their tears away, but your brother's reaction had me thinking for a good while, I think (may be wrong) that crying with you just because you are crying kind of puts the "comforter" in the same "level" as the original crying person, I see the person becoming "vulnerable on purpose" to be at the same level, even if he is the one comforting. What do you think?I sometimes use big words without thinking about whether or not others will understand, so I'm glad you were able to find the definition online!
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Personally, I don't really rank the intimacy of certain actions--I think it depends entirely on the moment. For example, the moment with my brother (when he was crying with me) was fairly intimate, but it would've been more intimate if we had been alone together. As it was, my parents were also there. The way I think of it, the more people you add into the moment, the less intimate it becomes. (I don't know if I'm making any sense; hopefully, I am.)
Here's another example: if you share something private about
| Crying Discussion » Has anyone else read a book that made them ugly-cry? If so, what book? » June 13, 2020 9:22 pm |
- azutid
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Amans lacrimae wrote:azutid wrote:
I know! I was also surprised at how hard I was crying. By the time my mom walked in, I had calmed down enough that I wasn't sobbing anymore--I was definitely still crying steadily, though.
I was originally lying down while I was crying, but I sat up for a while because my pillow was getting pretty wet from my tears. Because I changed positions, the tears basically went everywhere. At first, they were falling across my face and nose into my pillow, but when I sat up, they started going down my cheeks. It was interesting, since I somehow managed to get the upper eyelid of my left eye wet--that's the spot that my mom wiped for me. I was sitting up when she came in.
I'd actually say that it's taken me a long time to get to this point, where I can let someone wipe my tears! The time that I spoke about when I turned my back to my mom happened back in 2017, so that was a while ago. Those were also different circumstances--I was crying because I was going through a very rough patch. Strangely enough, I'm mostly okay with letting people see me cry if I'm crying over a movie or book. If I'm crying because of something going on in my life, I typically try to hide it better. Still, I feel like I've made progress over the last few years.
I wasn't surprised that my mom was the first person to wipe my tears--she's one of the only people I ever cry in front of, aside from my dad and maybe my two brothers. I don't think my brothers would ever try wiping my tears. Wiping tears isn't really something my family does, aside from my mom.
Unfortunately, I'm no longer dating the boyfriend I mentioned near the end of 2018--my family ended up moving two states away. My ex and I decided that we didn't want to try a long-distance relationship, considering how young we were and how short of a time we'd been together. As of right now, I'm single as a pringle!
What gestures have your brothers
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| Crying Discussion » Has anyone else read a book that made them ugly-cry? If so, what book? » June 13, 2020 9:12 pm |
- azutid
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truffle wrote:
I haven't sobbed over a book in a long time. For some reason I've just stopped reading sad books. They give me a weird anxiety, like after I get a little sad I just want to stop reading.
In elementary school I sobbed while reading Holes.
In middle school I sobbed alarmingly hard multiple times while reading Flowers for Algernon. It's a really short story, but there was a section where I would read like 4 pages, and have to put the thing down and just sob for a minute, then return to the story, then pause again to sob, it was an absolute mess.
I like crying during movies/shows though.I definitely understand where you're coming from, truffle! It took me two days to read the book that made me ugly-cry--the first day, I stopped reading right before things started getting sad, just because I didn't feel like getting into the sad parts yet.
I'm pretty sure I've read Holes, although I don't remember much about it. I do remember reading Flowers for Algernon back in middle school--that was an incredibly sad story! I don't remember crying over that one (then again, I was in the middle of class when we read it), but the ending was absolutely heartbreaking. I recently watched the movie, which was also sad.
| Crying Discussion » Has anyone else read a book that made them ugly-cry? If so, what book? » June 13, 2020 9:04 pm |
- azutid
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Amans lacrimae wrote:
Wow, a Book that had you sobbing. Were you still sobbing when your mom walked in?
Were you sitting or laying when you were crying (you mention wiping your tears, yet missing a spot, that makes me think you had tears falling in several streaks)?
You said you were learning to allow the right people in, but that was quick, you went from turning your back to your mom to allowing her to wipe tears from your eyes😮. You found it sweet, the first time your tears are wiped, honestly I thought it would happen at home (I also wiped my daughters tears when they came to me crying, specially in their teens, you know, hormones), but I didn't expect your mom would be the first. I don't remember if you have a brother or not, but I thought the first to wipe your tears would be a brother or your boyfriend (I assume you are still dating the one you mentioned by the end of 2018).
Just noticed I didn't answer your question, no, I haven't ugly-cried while reading a book.I know! I was also surprised at how hard I was crying. By the time my mom walked in, I had calmed down enough that I wasn't sobbing anymore--I was definitely still crying steadily, though.
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I was originally lying down while I was crying, but I sat up for a while because my pillow was getting pretty wet from my tears. Because I changed positions, the tears basically went everywhere. At first, they were falling across my face and nose into my pillow, but when I sat up, they started going down my cheeks. It was interesting, since I somehow managed to get the upper eyelid of my left eye wet--that's the spot that my mom wiped for me. I was sitting up when she came in.
I'd actually say that it's taken me a long time to get to this point, where I can let someone wipe my tears! The time that I spoke about when I turned my back to my mom happened back in 2017, so that was a while ago. Those were also different circumstances--I was crying b
| Crying Fiction » Truth or Dare » June 13, 2020 6:45 am |
- azutid
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[Sorry I took a little bit longer to write this scene--I've been kept pretty busy preparing for my mission. I'll try to crank out as much writing as I can in the next two weeks, and we'll see if I can find a good stopping point.
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In the meantime, I hope you guys enjoy! I included a happy ending, which I hope is okay with everyone. I didn't add any dirty details (smut isn't exactly my forte, lol), but the conclusion of this scene definitely made me giggle as I wrote it.
As always, if you guys have any requests for the story or suggestions, let me know!]
Kylie sighs, rubbing her temples like she has a headache. “I let it slip to my mom. About us, I mean. She started asking all of these questions about you--where you’re from, what you’re studying, what career you plan on going into. Stuff like that. It wouldn’t have been a problem--she’s my mother, you know? Naturally, she wants to know more about you. But then, she started lecturing me about what it means to have a boyfriend in college. She told me all of the things that could go wrong, like getting pregnant, losing focus of my grades, getting my heart broken, and more. She even went as far as to forbid me from getting married while I’m still in college, as if that’s a thought in my mind right now. Hell, she informed me that if I do get married as a college student, she will not be attending the wedding. It was awful. And my dad jumped in the conversation, agreeing with everything my mom was saying.” She stops, shaking her head as fresh tears pool in her eyes.
I try not to let it show, but my blood is absolutely boiling. Opening my mouth, I hesitate before speaking. It probably wouldn’t help Kylie if I let my anger show--especially considering how much she still loves her parents. Instead, I rub her back again. “I’m so sorry, Kylie. That sounds horrible, and I wish I could do something to help.”
She looks up, smiling sadly. “You are helping. I don’t tell you enough, but I’m so gratefu
| Crying Discussion » Has anyone else read a book that made them ugly-cry? If so, what book? » June 13, 2020 5:54 am |
- azutid
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I finished reading a super sad book today, and I cannot believe the amount of tears I shed. Typically, movies can make me cry fairly easily, but it takes a special book to make me cry while reading it--which is why I'm so surprised. I cried so much, and it was not pretty crying!
It was actually comical, since my mom found out. She knocked on my door to see how I was doing, and I warned her before she walked in that I was reading a sad book (I didn't want her to get concerned as to why I was crying). She walked in and started talking to me. I wiped my tears, but she said I missed a spot and wiped my left eyelid. It was kinda sweet. We shared a laugh over the situation, and she left to go run an errand.
Anyway, I was wondering if anyone else has read a book that made them ugly-cry--for curiosity's sake, and also because I'm a sucker for sappy books, lol.
(In case anyone is wondering, the book was Brittany by Jack Weyland. It's a super religious book, so it probably isn't everyone's cup of tea, but I enjoyed it.)
| Crying Discussion » Which part of the eye do you prefer tears to fall from the most? » June 13, 2020 5:39 am |
- azutid
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Personally, I prefer tears to fall from the middle of the eye. That way, they are easy to see AND easy to wipe/kiss away (theoretically, anyway--I've never actually been brave enough to wipe away anyone's tears). It's a bit frustrating when I can't see the tears because they're running down the side of their face or down their nose.
Similar to caircair, I also like when tears fall without touching the face--especially as the light glints off of it. It's kinda like an added bonus, lol.
| Crying Fiction » Truth or Dare » June 8, 2020 5:13 am |
- azutid
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[Aaand as promised, here is the bit from Kylie's POV. Hope you guys enjoy!]
I take a deep breath and let it out slowly. Connor sits there, waiting for my answer--an answer that I don’t even know for certain. It’s like those moments in therapy when they ask you a deep question, and it feels like the answer is hidden deep inside of you--so deep that you can’t even find it. I hate those moments with a passion. In fact, I hate those moments almost as much as I hate crying.
Still, the words start pouring out of me before I can stop them. “I need someone, Connor. No, not just anyone--I need you. It’s like a game of tug-of-war inside of me, and all I can do is hope I’m doing the right thing. Maybe I did the right thing by calling you. I don’t know. All I know is that this--asking for your help, allowing you to see me in this state, even breaking down in your arms--is against everything my mother taught me. I can’t help feeling like I’m doing the wrong thing. Maybe one day I won’t apologize profusely for breaking down in front of you, but that day is in the distant future. For now, all I ask is for you to stay with me. Please don’t leave.”
Connor wraps me in a tight hug--so tight I almost can’t breathe. “I’ll never leave you. I’m here for you, I love you, and I support you.”
Little by little, I relax in his arms. “Okay,” I whisper so quietly I’m not sure he hears me.
A couple minutes into the hug, he speaks up. “Also, have I ever told you how much I dislike your mother?”
I break away from the hug, laughing. “Actually, you have. Many times.”
He smiles softly. “Good. Now, back to business--what’s going on?
| Crying Fiction » Truth or Dare » June 8, 2020 5:07 am |
- azutid
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[Hello, hello! I just got done writing Connor's perspective, and I'm pretty excited about it. Big shout-out to Amans, who pointed out something I forgot to write about--I was a little stuck, and his observation actually helped me figure out what to write.
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I also wrote a bit from Kylie's perspective, which I'll be posting right after this.
Also, thank you so much, Cryophilia! That means a lot to me!
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My own heart shatters inside my chest as I watch Kylie break down. I scoop her up and into my lap, wishing that I could somehow reach inside her and heal her heart. As it is, all I can do is hug her and whisper that everything is going to be okay--even though I’m not sure she will be okay anytime soon. The only thing I’m sure of is that I love her with all my heart.
Kylie’s torso shakes as she sobs. I stroke her silky hair and rock gently from side to side, silently praying that I can fix whatever’s wrong. As I do so, I notice how tense she is--it’s like she isn’t accepting the comfort I’m trying to give.
“You’re safe,” I whisper in her ear. “I’m here for you. Please trust me. Everything is going to be okay--I just know it.” Moving my hand down, I begin rubbing her back. Kylie relaxes almost imperceptibly. I continue rubbing her back, waiting until she calms down enough to talk.
A few minutes after her sobs die down, she pulls away. Her face is smeared with tears. Before I can offer the sleeve of my hoodie, she wipes her face with her own sleeve.
“What happened?” I rest my hand on her cheek, wiping a stray tear with my thumb.
Kylie avoids looking at me, choosing to stare at the floor. Her eyes are full of so much sadness that my chest aches.
“Kylie? Please talk to me.” I stroke her hair and lean in to kiss her forehea