You and me both, guys. You and me both.

And heck, I'd probably BE a hired female crier if I could!

As for what happened with F, we did date casually while he was still in LA. I don't think either of us were looking for something serious at the moment, but we hung out a lot, went to shows and bars, and yes, had sex. One night after too many drinks I got bold and confessed my fetish to him. We had wrapped the film at that point so it wouldn't make work weird (unless we work together again someday...) and I was just thinking how I might not get the chance again. He laughed but was not put off by it. He told me that he was into girls' feet and shoes. (I know, so vanilla right?)  I wanted to try consoling him as foreplay that night but he said he was too drunk.

A few nights later, though, we did, and it was amazing. It ended up happening several times over the course of us hanging out, he would play different "characters" at my request just like a gig. He'd prepare just like he was on set and I would have to wait. I think he liked all the attention and praise he got from me for his acting chops tbh. Other times I would indulge his fetish with foot stuff, wearing very high heeled shoes and other things. The foot stuff didn't turn me on but I didn't mind it, either.

He ended up going to New York to do a play but we stayed friends and text occasionally. I do sometimes hope we'll play again. No one else has really lived up to that since, and he was the first to indulge my fetish.

Why thank you! Nothing nearly as awesome has happened on set since, but hopefully someday...

Funny thing, I actually mentioned it to a new friend just tonight! She was over and we were watching some clips on YouTube of a TV show I like. In one clip an attractive male character was crying, and I said "he's so hot when he cries" and she agreed. "I just find it really hot when guys cry," I said, and she seemed unphased. She told me then that when she sees men cry it sometimes makes her tear up because she's so not used to seeing it. I told her that this happens to me sometimes, too.

So yes, long story short, it comes up most often during TV or movies, or while discussing TV or movies. And I just tend to say that I "have a thing for guys crying" or "find it really hot when guys cry." I guess I don't say "fetish" often because it feel very sexual to do so, and I feel like talking to people other than my own sexual partners about sexual things would be rude and too forward.

As for telling men vs. women... Pretty even, I guess? Maybe more women, since those are the ones I tend to discuss turn-ons in men with. Women usually react with some version of "me too." They might not have the fetish, but almost all women who like men seem to find male crying cute. Men sometimes act weirded out or think I'm crazy, though.

I tend to be pretty open about it. Though I often shy away from using the word "fetish" because I find it uncomfortable and fear others will, too.

And in acting situations I usually keep it to myself because I don't want my costars to become uncomfortable during emotional scenes if we have any.

Oh god, the idea of a hot guy saying "I'm gonna cry" or something like that, all choked up and apologetic and matter of fact, before letting the tears go is SO HOT to me. Like, a model-actor gorgeous type with a lot of control who is just. so. emotionalrightnow for whatever reason.

And I'm young, but I have said such things before when I get emotional. Usually complete with fanning my eyes.